I’m Right Here

This is what I say to Charlee while I try to wrangle laundry and she proceeds to pull all things in all directions…”I’m right here! Come find me!”  She does.

With two weeks left of my maternity leave I am starting to feel the time crunch.  I’m sure all you educators can relate; it’s similar to the feeling of mid-August…except I’ve been off work for 17 months (those six days of work I did last October before I found myself laid up in the antepartum ward don’t really count).

Why does my school email me 47 times a day?

Can I email myself? Like, will these Word Docs attach if I send them to myself?

Do I even know how to teach?

These are only a few of the actual questions I’ve asked myself today.  I think it’s safe to say that I am somewhat overwhelmed about this going back to work thing because this morning I truly did not remember if emailing attachments to myself, from my own email account, was a thing.

The state of my kitchen table these days: day book, lap top open to school calendars, coffee, sippy cup, school keys, and my beckoning workout DVDs.  Oh, and Sophie, because Charlee has four teeth now.

The state of my kitchen table these days: day book, lap top open to school calendars, coffee, sippy cup, school keys, and my beckoning workout DVDs. Oh, and Sophie, because Charlee has four teeth now.

The thing I am most fearful about right now is going back to work part-time.  I am working three days between two schools and; therefore, two grades.  This was my choice, my decision, one I am very happy about.  The fear I am experiencing is stemming from my high-achieving, people pleasing tendencies.  I confessed to one of my administrators (who happens to be a dear friend)  the other day that I can’t “do it all” this year.  I told her, “I can’t be you…I can’t stay late…I can’t, can’t, can’t”.  The thing is, this word can’t is never really in my vocabulary.  I’m struggling with it right now.  Along with can’t comes the word don’t – as in, “I don’t know how to work part-time”.  I’m either all in, or all out.  In my opinion, there is not a lot of room for me to do my job well in between those two options.  I’m also struggling with this right now.

I met one of my staff’s new learning support teachers today and when introduced to her she exclaimed, “Oh! I read your blog!” I love meeting real people who read our blog because it always strikes me as funny that people read what we write. This woman went on to ask if I planned to keep up blogging while being a freshly back-to-work mama and teacher, to which I replied, “Yes!  But I have been pretty absent during the last year…I just find I have nothing to say about teaching when I’m not…teaching”.  Makes sense. She suggested I write about what I’m experiencing right now as I go through this process of re-entering the work force.

So now I’m inspired to write about how this transitional time is going for me and my family and my students.  There will be some big changes in two weeks’ time, perhaps the most profound being that I can’t stay in my jammies until 10am anymore!  In all seriousness, though, I believe change is good.  Yes, it is painful and yes, sometimes tears are involved, but through change comes growth and I am willing and open to embrace this period of growth as a teacher and (most importantly) as a mama.  Stay tuned for my inevitable meltdowns and epiphanies as I become a working mama!  My intention is to find a way to set boundaries at school and parameters around how much work I bring/don’t bring home.  I also hope to keep up meal planning, exercising, family time and friend time.

I know I can do it.


So What Are You Doing?

At a conference last weekend I met someone who follows our blog and she asked “What are you doing this year?” – This made me realize that I haven’t shared much on the blog this year.

This year teaching hasn’t been the focus of my life for the first time in a long time! It is strange to not be putting in the crazy long hours and thinking non stop about my students but I definitely think it is good for me too. So if I’m not teaching all the time then what am I doing?


In just over a week, I’m leaving for a five week trip to Fiji and New Zealand and I can’t wait! I am going to Fiji on my first ever solo travel trip and then I am meeting two of my best friends for a three week road trip in New Zealand. Traveling is something that I’m very passionate about and I have been saving up and working extra jobs trying to save for this trip so I’m really excited that it is all coming together.

And… I’m getting married!


We are planning our wedding for next summer so I have been spending way too much time researching and planning for that. I’m absolutely loving it too! I always said that if I wasn’t a teacher I would have been an event planner so I guess I’m trying to live that out this year haha.

On that note, I have actually been teaching as well it just doesn’t feel quite like the full time gig. I am currently covering one of Karley’s jobs until she returns from mat leave and it has been a lot of fun! It’s a grade 7 class and I am teaching math and social studies so I’ve been able to focus on the election coming up. I am also subbing the other days, and although it isn’t my favourite job, I do enjoy visiting different teaching friends at different schools.

I will be on the lookout for a full time job when I return from my trip and I’m really looking forward to diving back into the teaching world after a much needed friend/travel break first!